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[1]: but do you think there’s still something out there for me?
[2]: just face it
[2]: you'll burn yourself out again trying
[2]: nobody's paying attention
[1]: so i'll just be forever lost in the noise of the web? at least i would've tried my best to get somewhere
[2]: don't be surprised when it doesn't work out the way you intended it
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[2]: i feel like i have to be everything..
[2]: there's so much still left to work on and so much to do, it's so overwhelming
[1]: there's only so much you can do at once
[2]: but is it enough?
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[1]: is it working yet?
[2]: of course not just be patient
[1]: but what if it’s not worth it?
[2]: aren’t you doing this for yourself
[2]: don’t you believe in yourself?
[1]: well it’s just
[1]: i want to feel like it’s gonna be fine
[2]: you know it’s not gonna be handed to you on a silver platter
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[1]: doesn't it make you feel better?
[2]: it does.. when it works out
[2]: but when it doesn't i just pressure myself more
[2]: it really eats me up
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[1]: why did you hurt yourself?
[2]: i didn't mean to
[2]: i just wanted to feel the dopamine i usually feel
[1]: but why do you keep doing this?
[2]: i long to be important
[2]: i long to mean something in the grand scheme of things
[1]: please don't hurt yourself
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[1]: has my mind and my body ever felt connected?
[2]: what do you mean
[1]: it feels like i think of myself as a completely different person
[1]: than how i look on the outside
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[user]: hello? anyone there?
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[2]: aren’t you doing too much? don’t care to catch a break?
[1]: it still feels good to me
[1]: i can’t bother myself with empty boredom
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[2]: will it be worth it in the end?
[1]: of course it will be worth it
[1]: this means everything to me
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[1]: it's happening again
[1]: i don't know what to do
[2]: you said it was over for good
[1]: i know and i'm sorry
[1]: i just can't help it
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[o]: system error
[o]: no data found
[o]: no willpower left
[o]: attention ran dry
[o]: no input no output
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[o]: could i be your popstar?
[o]: could i be your popstar?
[o]: could i be your popstar?
[o]: could i be your popstar?
[o]: could i be your popstar?
[o]: could i be your popstar?
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[1]: what's keeping you awake?
[2]: i feel as though i'm tied to a thin string that's about to break
[2]: everything i've accomplished this far
[2]: one small mistake and it could all disappear
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[2]: it's so cold now
[1]: i'm starting to geta bit sick
[2]: i feel the warmthis gone now
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[o]: f dcwxedr
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[1]: it's the way they stick around
[1]: it's the way they don't abandon you
[1]: maybe it was never said, but you are loved
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[2]: i'm not sure if i can keep this going
[2]: i'm not sure if i want to keep up this facade
[2]: people think i'm this when i'm not
[2]: should i say something? should i change? should i keep it to myself?
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[o]: what’s that?
[o]: my power has been out…
[o]: have i been asleep this whole time?
[o]: i think i lost all my files…
[o]: i’m so tired..
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